This post will be deleted when (not if!) I get my essay in. The purpose of Quanglican is to explore questions of faith, politics and praxis from the perspective of an extremely confused Anglican interested in Quakerism.

However, just for now - I grapple with an anxiety disorder and depression, and it's taken a huge toll on my life. Today, I said I'd achieve a particular goal. And I went through so much anxiety, because I've tried for this goal in the past so many times and failed, and I really thought it was going to happen again. But it didn't. It nearly did - I spent the day paralysed by anxiety - but in the end, I prayed, and something in me snapped, and I did it. I feel incredible.

I wanted to write that kind of as an affirmation to myself, like it's okay for me to be proud of these little victories over the disorder. Because it used to destroy me, and just to win for once, well, it was amazing!